Yes, ladies and gents I myself am on a fitness journey. Now, much like everyone else I have been on and off this journey about 1,000 times in the last three years. However, this time around I am three months in and still going strong… well most days. Back story I am a human and I am not perfect. I eat things I know I shouldn’t and hate myself afterwards, but I also have my really good days.
I started working out because I decided one day that I hated my body. This I learned along the way is a TERRIBLE way to motivate yourself. Truth is losing weight, and building muscle actually doesn’t happen over night like some of these commercials make it seem. It takes time, discipline, consistency, and about a million other things. I started this leg of my journey on May 13th of this year seven days after my 24th birthday. Now, when I started this time I had already been on and off so I was nowhere near my heaviest, which was about 185 – 190 pounds. I have tried a million times to find pictures of myself at this weight and they are non existent. Probably because I was also the most unhappy I had every been at that point in my life and it honestly had nothing to do with what I weighed. The weight that I put on during that time came from me eating my feelings. If we go back a little further on the timeline I weighed about 107 pounds when I graduated from high school. I was active, I played sports, and I understood what nutrition was. Then I graduated and stopped all of that stuff and just started eating every single negative feeling I had.
Life eventually went on and I found myself happier but still not caring about my body at all. Then I met my best friend and she was super fit and worked out everyday and I truly looked up to her for it. She took care of herself in every way possible and working out became another thing that we enjoyed doing together. Well, long story short we both fell of the workout train together also.
A few months ago I was like wow, 24 huh?! In the grand scheme of things I understand this is not considered “old” but lord did it feel like it. I needed a change. I started running something I had never done before even when I was working out in the past cardio was not a thing I did often. I ran almost every day, my legs were sore, it was hot, and sometimes it even rained. The way I started feeling mentally is what kept me going physically. I choose to run in the morning 90% of the time the days that I don’t I can definitely feel the shift in my mood. Waking up and hitting the road while everyone else is still sleeping gives me such a free feeling. I come home and before work even starts I got my workout for the day in. I head into work feelings inspired and ready to take on the day. When I choose to wake up twenty minuets before I have to clock in the day has a whole different vibe. Running is my therapy. No matter what is going on in my life I have realized that I can simply run it out. Now, obviously it’s not always that simple I mean its life come on now. Running has helped me feel good about myself, and in doing that it has changed the way I deal with others also.
I still lift. Not as much as I should but its also something I enjoy. Anything that keeps me busy is something I like to do. Now, this is no way intended to be a body shaming post. I am in no way shape or form saying that people who don’t workout aren’t mentally stable. Everyone has their own way of coping and believe me I tried a lot of them. Working out just happens to help me and kills two birds with one stone.
I ran one 5k this summer and took first in my age group. Also did a muddy princess with a group of my girls and it was such an amazing experience and I am looking forward to doing more things like this.
One thing I learned is the fitness world is a big place. It is super easy to connect with people all over the world who are into the same thing you are. I usually steal all my workouts from watching clips on IG of girls who know what they are doing and then I try my best to copy them. If you are interested in starting a journey but don’t know how its okay really I had zero idea when I started. There is so much information about everything on the internet these days just start. My weight goes up and down. Some days my workout is great, I drink my whole gallon of water, and my macros are perfect. (If you don’t know what macros are it’s okay I can link you to some fool proof websites that’s how I learned.) Other days I lay in bed all day, get up and go to work, then stop for ice cream, and find myself back in bed. The point I am trying to make is they call it a journey for a reason. It’s not meant to be perfect, fool proof, and simple. It truly will help shape you as a person, and probably give you a new outlook on life and yourself. If you are thinking about trying it then just start somewhere. Walk for 20 minuets a day, or take the stairs at the office instead of the elevator. Little things can result in big changes.
I am going to share my progress pictures thus far. Like I stated before I am just over three months in, so what I’m going to share is my three months progress pictures. They are not always the easiest things to look at BUT they are good reminders of where I started. They have helped me continue going when I want to quit more than once. I know… I just talked about how amazing this journey has made me feel and yet there are days that I just want to quit. It’s the truth and that’s what I am here to share.
I hope you enjoy.
As always thank you for reading, and being a part of my journey.
peace and love,
Kathryn
Kindly Kathryn 
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